There are so many triggers that set me off in an array of emotions. Beautiful sunsets and sunrises, beautiful skies in general.
Anything in a set of threes. I see sets of threes and automatically think of the triplets. Similarly, seeing twins sets me off on a roller coaster. I know, I wasn't having twins, but when I see identical twins, I picture Leah and Rachel. And when I see multiples, in general, I think about how I don't get to be considered part of that special club any more.
In the beginning, seeing pregnant women and newborns through elementary age children was difficult. While I'd never wish this on my worst enemy, I often thought, why does she get to still be pregnant? Or why won't I ever see my babies turn 5? These things mad me very mad.
Of course, there are many songs that have been emotional triggers. Songs about sad situations to songs that remind me that I'm not - and can't be - in control.
While I don't always like my feelings that accompany these triggers, I do enjoy being reminded of my babies. And if that's what I have to go through to keep them with me, so be it.
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